Thinking outside of the box......and making the Box into furniture

I first want to apologize for the long wait between post. I have had writer's block for the last week or so. Recently, heard someone say," when you have Writer's block, write about the block."   It was funny at first. Then i took the time to think about the blocks I have in my life. Though I'm still working on turning some of those blocks into furniture,I was able to put a block on paper. Hoping you enjoy what I have written. I would love to hear your feedback. Regular posts should resume shortly. Thankyou for stopping by.  ~Taye

It Don't Hurt Now

My heart is torn 

But it's not all pain

Tear stain present

Yet I'm not a woman scorn

Didn't think you were leaving

Anymore

I love you was the last thing you said

When you walked out the door

Thing is it don't hurt now

I've found someone to make me smile

All the tears you've caused

He has wiped them away

Trusting someone was paused

I'm pressing play 

Now I'm no longer

Seeing 50 shades of gray

He has me seeing in HD

Life is looking lovely

Although I'm still waiting 

for you to come to me and say

I'm not leaving anymore 

You are the one I adore

Until then I'll stay

Letting his love sink in

Where my heart is torn

No I'm not scorned

But no longer will I morn...... I'm moving on

Heartache don't last always....trust me :-)

Heartache is hard to bounce back from it sometimes leads us to doubt ourselves,become bitter and sometimes build walls up. I once heard a woman say, " I would rather have a bee sting me a million times. Maybe the (physical) pain would distract me from my soul pain. At least I knew how to soothe physical pain." That is so true! I was inspired to write about this not only because I have experience heartache , but because I read on a good friend and sister of mines blog(nogirlsbestfriend.blogspot.com) that we need God to heal those past hurts.  Secondly, also taken from Lindsey's blog, "without those hurts without those experiences, I would never know what it feels like to love, be loved, hurt and to be hurt" I encourage you guys to go over and read her full blog. I know breaking up/ heartache hurts like hell. Just remember, you are being molded and prepared for someone better. The below poems are just me releasing my hurt through my pen. I couldn't cry anymore. So like Jay-z made the song cry......I had to make my paper cry. Thanks for reading today. Don't forget to leave your comments, questions and feedback. Be blessed!  ~Taye

 Heart Abuse

Though my heart beats for you

yours seems to stand still for me

Present yet lifeless

Tried to resuscitate

but your heart still never 

seemed to reciprocate.

Can’t make you love me,

But I thought I could  try

 My love was greeted

with a goodbye

Now I'm here losing sleep

Wondering what did wrong

Cause if I was all you wanted

Why didn't it work?

Still trying to find a way

To deal with the hurt

I think it may be too late

My heart has gone cold

No need to invigorate

This heart has been battered

To a state of death

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Don't worry

You don't have to explain

Lets let this paper will absorb 

The pain your about to pass on to me

Yes I know

She is what you need

I'm not mad at all...I know u gotta leave

U say u had feelings for me...

But I'm unsure

Good friends we can be

I still got your back....

All it cost me was my heart

Well at least a big part

Can't say Irish I wouldn't have met you

Cause in the mist of the whirlwind 

We was all up in

My soul mate met me there

Stripped me of my vesture of life

And allowed me to be comfortable bear

Those memories and feelings

Let's leave them here

And let the paper absorb the pain

You have passed on to me.

Warrior Song.....Im more than a Survior

We have all been through hard times. There is not a person that I know that is immune to storms, worries, stress or just that one person that gets on your last nerves.  :-) We go through issues, but we always seem to come out  much stronger. I like T.I when he says “What don’t kill me, makes me better”. There are many quotes and sayings all along those lines that mean and say the same thing.  That’s exactly my point, we go through things, come out stronger, and have a testimony to encourage others! One thing that I have learned as I have gotten older is that I am a Warrior!  More than a survivor (which I have always thought of myself to be). However a warrior, is in constant battle ,prepared  and protects. The dictionary had defined a warrior as: a person who shows or has shown great vigor, courage, or aggressiveness, as in politics or athletics.   I have exceeded, conquered and demonstrated all of the above. God has molded a warrior woman out of me. A woman who refuses to give up, bow down or settle. Whatever you may be  going through, stand strong, put on your warrior mentality and walk in it.  This poem below is my Warrior poem. Thank you guys for stopping by and reading today. Be blessed, leave a comment and stop back by tomorrow. ~Taye

More than a Survior 

The world brings drawbacks

But I fight past that

Stand tall move on

I can do that

Off the bat

I was made to outlast

Refused to be

held down by my past

Rocked by hurricanes

Earthquakes and all

Still I'm here standing tall

Dirt dumped on me

I done stood in the rain

Heart stomped on

But I endured the pain

Fake ones have tried to faze

Set my dreams on fire

Yet I survived the blaze

Verbal slugs thrown

to the back  of my head

Learned not to care

about what they said

Kunta's fight in my blood

I am the bud

God allowed to grow

From the concrete

Through the storm and then some

With each layer that comes undone

i get tougher as my beauty shine.

 

It's ok to move on.........leave the bag!

Love is a wonderful thing. I am very fortunate that u have had the opportunity to experience Love. It's like a natural high. Of course with Love, we can also experience heartache. With heartache you may have doubt or resistant to get into a new relationship.

That causes baggage. Which we don't want! :-) In the poem below I'm writing about my hesitation to express my feelings because of past situations. Sometimes holding on to past, may cause you to miss out on what's presently in front of you or possibly what's in your future. Believe me, lol I have learned. Thanks for stopping by today! Let me know your experiences.....or just leave a comment and let me know what you think. Be blessed!

~Taye

" Not Yet"

Thoughts screaming 

mouth silenced 

Saying so much

Unable to send signals

Close enough to touch what I want

Circumstances got us so far apart

Lonely as I begin

Tossing thoughts around  my

Mental jail cell

Never letting them escape 

The padded walls

They rest uneasy in

My brain it learned from heart

Heart allowed itself to be free

Loved openly

Now it's hurting 

Hold it in

So like a caterpillar 

Let the chrysalis form

In due time I'll 

Be ready to emerge

Letting my brain

Give my mouth the ok

To speak the words my heart

Feel for you 

My Sunshine......came at Midnight :-)

Life is like a road trip! Sometimes the scenery is beautiful and sometimes all you see is dirt roads. No matter what you see on your journey, you know that you are just passing through on your journey to your destination. In the poems below, I experienced being in a place where all I saw was dark dirt roads. God allowed me to continue driving on journey. It took some time. Before I knew it, my scenery changed from dirt road to a breath taking view. As I continue on, I’m sure the view will change again.  I hold on knowing that  bigger breathtaking sights waiting to be seen is yet to come!

Please leave your comments, feedback and criticism below. All is welcomed! I love you guys. Thanks for reading.

Searching 

Here I stand ...

Looking for your hands 

In the fog.... I search blindly

Stumbling my way through

My God...why don't I see you

Hurting myself 

tripping over the debris  in my way

If I find you...this time in your arms I promise to stay

So many tears....downing out any sounds

 I can't hear ...your voice I need to hear

Please draw me near to you

I know there will be no need to fear

But right now.......

I'm drowning in it

Will you come steer me

To my place of safety

My refuge .....

Sunshine at Midnight

My sunshine came one night.....at midnight

I couldn't see a thing but

It came peeking  from behind 

The  fog and the cloud

Shining so bright...I had to lift from the bow

Position  I have been slumped in...

Even through I should be going through my time of darkness

My creator sent a sign......

I can do can all things when it's time

The sunshine...in mist of the darkest hour

Piecing  through my veil of iniquity 

Is My guiding light leading me through

The mountains that I'm facing

I can cover any ground cause I got my 

Light  around....

Though you may throw shade on me

I'll still be able to see with

My sunlight at midnight

He Heals me

In life we all go through something. Whether it be a mild storm or a hurricane. We all have  had that  moment in time where we felt as if  we  were  broken and  couldn’t  go on. Although we have people in our lives that cover us and attempt to make us feel better, we must remember to look to our heavenly father who will ultimately cover us and take care of us forever. One day while praying….I asked God why did it hurt so much…and he placed this on my heart. Hoping it comforts you, like it comforted me. Be blessed!  Please leave a comment. ~ Taye

He heals

I'll heal your heart

If you let me

All you gotta do is accept me

I'm not like the others

I won't let you down

Be my Princess

I already earned your crown

Though others love

Come and leave

Mine is unconditional and I'll never go

I've already dies for you and I'm still here

They confirmed I was real when

They poked me with that spear

Come and try me then

You will know my love is real

It heals......

I'll heal your heart....

If you let me

Dedicated to the one I love........

It's only right that the first poem would be dedicated to the Love of my Life. This was written a year ago on Asia's 4th birthday. After God, she is the main driving force in my life. Be blessed ...have a wonderful Labor day!

4 Asia

Four years ago my whole life changed

You came out of nowhere , switched it up thought I was a woman but you grew me up

From the time I saw your face...nothing else mattered... It would be Asia & Mommy against the world!

People told me I couldn't handle it that my life would change.... Said stuff like I would never sleep late again .... I love the fact that on my days off you sleep past 10.

On the other side.. Maybe they were right... My life has changed because I get that overwhelming feeling of joy every time I hear you say, "where are you at Momma?"....I fight back tears when I hear you say, "I love you Momma"..... Even if it is after you get a popsicle.. You bring a joy to my life that no one else can bring. I love you Pumpkin!

Welcome to Poetry...through my Life's Window

I have been writing poetry since I was in the 7th grade. I have always kept it hidden because I never wanted anyone to know my inner thoughts. When I turned 20...I stopped writing. A lady approached me out of blue and said, "you have a writing talent...why are you not using it? That is what is going to help you along your way". I though this woman was crazy....she never read any of my work...how would she know. After about a year...my good friend and sister who is an awesome writer, inspired me to start writing again. Although I wrote to release my emotions...I would often throw the poems away or hide them from the world. I was just simply embarrassed to show my work to anyone. In the most recent years, God has placed people around me to encourage me to share my work. I am now ready. which is why this blog is here. I welcome Critiques, criticisms, comments. All feedback is welcome. Enjoy this journey of Poetry...through my Life's Window.